I missed those times when we fooled around the campus without a care in the world.
I missed those times when we stayed up all night chatting, rushing our assignments, studying for our exams.
I missed those times when we held our hands together while walking along the street back to our hostel.
I missed the moment your soft lip touches against mine.
I can still remember the excitement of meeting you everyday.
I can still remember the happiness when playing around with you.
I can still remember the sleepless nights we spent chatting about random stuff.
I can still remember my hand sweating non-stop while you held it gently.
I can still remember the embarrassment experiencing kissing with you.
The warm heat from your embrace still lingers on my body refusing to let go.
I can't sleep alone with an empty heart knowing that you'll never be with me.
Tears roll down my cheek when I look back at those days at the corner of my cold room.
The scar on my heart screams in pain when I sees you having fun without me around.
It's almost too much to bear having to laugh with you so it won't be awkward.
But alas, nothing can be change.
You will never be mine, I can never have you.
The only thing I could do now is to hope that time will heal the wound on my heart.
Place in the juxtaposition of our late chapter, life seemed to had become rather more or less ecstatic, hadn't it not? We're all in the hamster wheel of life running and running up laps in of thee oh so familiar cage of ambivalence.
ReplyDeleteOh... so frivolous Kylie, as your own personal assistant in the uneasy road of life that life itself finds it hard to be defined, you are one bitch filled of moxie and spunk, in a good way of course!
A last, all I wanted to let a dear friend to heave is that not only thou may be having a lapse of conundrum floating effortlessly around your head, but I'm here to let you know that everything would and will work out in the end as simple laws of natures dictates that imbalances will harmonize itself through many minor and unseeable changes in life. Besides, yours truly is going through a similar predicament either way.
Don't worry Kylie, have a little faith in life, only the skies will know what's in-store next.
My lips are sealed.
- Thee Mum Advocate within the Silent Darkness